An amazing amount of time has flown by since my last update to this blog…I was on such a roll too. That what comes of me heading back to school and back to the ordinary routine of my life. That, and add in some grad school, marital difficulties and a new school, and you have me being a pretty damn busy guy.
So what’s new with me? Not much, and a lot as you can see from above. In my most pressing, and judging by the traffic on this blog, most interesting to all of you news; I’m still married to Jenn. We are trying to work it out, and doing the best we can. We’re going to counseling, and I am going to counseling, and I am trying to figure out if I can be happy with Jenn, and if she can be happy with me. The jury is still very much out on both of those counts.
I still love Amy, and really would love to be with her, but for the sake of my children, I stay with Jenn. Life with Jenn isn’t bad, it just isn’t great, which makes it MUCH harder for me to make the selfish choice to be with Amy. It isn’t fair, and I know it isn’t right, but there are a lot of things that are neither fair nor right in the world, and still the persist and even thrive.
There have been times when I have been certain that I should let Amy go, and there are times when I have been certain that I should let Jenn go, and let the shit land where it may. At the end of the day I end up back where I’ve been for the last nearly 7 years.
In other news, I have not had any sort of other extracurricular play of any sort. Hell, I’ve been so busy, and getting such little sleep that I am hardly even horny most of the time, which is both a blessing and a curse. I have found some of my sex drive returning just recently, so who knows what kind of crazy trouble I’ll get into…but then again I’m kind of over it at the moment. Knowing me, that could change in an instant.